There’s a knock at the front door. I answer it. I am so relieved to see my friend Nancy. I have been dying to get out of the house. Pete is sick, in pain, scared, sad, depressed. He doesn’t like me to leave his side. I want to escape. I want to be with joy [...]

What do you want? Why do you want it? How do you want to feel? Who asks these ridiculous questions? Who the hell knows the answers to these questions? I certainly didn’t when my husband was diagnosed with a terminal cancer, nor did I ask them when he died or for the years following. Do [...]

I never felt more alone than when I was in a room full of people I knew… after my husband died. You know when you go to a party with your husband, you walk in together and then you both wander off and talk to different people. You don’t stay together the whole time, but [...]

My husband died last year. And that year I not only lost my husband; I also lost my closest friend; I lost my Saturday night date; I lost my children’s father and their best male role model; I lost our family disciplinarian; Our financial provider; My cheerleader … and critic; My talented, free and always [...]